Have you ever wanted to tell someone how beautiful they were? No strings attached, well maybe a thin thread of a small crush but nothing worth clinging too. It’s ok to have a crush on a beautiful soul right? Or at least one who has given you that impression. A crush is pretty much worthless in the end though. So I’m pulling out another pair of scissors and…snip.
Dangled on a string,
Like slow spinning confection,
Sweet to taste,
As temptation meets my eyes…
Infatuated i am hopeless,
Blah blah blah blah blah blah
Oh those dashboard confessionals and really bad jokes. But seriously, maybe finding love is a series of crushes whose threads you tug on until one doesn’t break.
Why does it feel so weird to flatter someone when you know you really mean it? I don’t want her to think I’m just trying to woo her, and I don’t want to creep her out. But at some point is it a risk you take? Do intentions justify an action? And what do you say to make it not weird? Do you tell them how you really enjoyed the time you’ve got to spend getting to know them? That you wish you could have more and understand the little observances. Tell me more about why don’t listen rap music? Why you are not that type? What does that mean? Why does the Subtle Art of Not Giving A F*ck speak to you? Is there some hurt there? She has a confidence about her but there’s something more under the surface. Is that true with every human? That has me curious and I wish I knew.
And then, I want to tell her that she’s absolutely gorgeous and I hope she never worries about finding someone. She has a beautiful, no a radiant smile. I always get stuck on the word beautiful. I need to be more creative but she is so pretty when she smiles. When I first met her I thought, “Now that’s the kind of girl I want”. She has an outlook on life that is one step ahead of the curve IMO. She’s not chasing the material, and she’s learning to live in the moment. She doesn’t seem to have bought into the stereotypical life(not that there is anything wrong with that). Then again, I hardly know her. I don’t think these things about everyone though, and I’m not attached to an outcome. It’s just nice to make someone feel beautiful, and it’s best when you’re not lying. There I go justifying an action. Is that good or bad? I don’t know.
But you know, maybe it’s best to not say anything. Maybe you passively hope that they’ll stumble across this letter and never know it was for them. They’ll most likely think you’re weird anyways and you’ll just scare them off. A little voice says, “You never know until you try”. And a bigger voice says, “Don’t tell her about the little voice, it’s definitely going creep her out.”
P.S – I’m not talking about you…
P.P.S – You are beautiful too.