The Past

Dear Wof,

It’s been about 6 years since the divorce. I’m not going to go into details about it. You can read that on my blog if you really want. You’ll have to find it though, adding a link would make it too easy and I don’t really want to wander through those archives. Lots of cob webs. I always feel this strange need to try and explain why it happened though. In part so others don’t just me wrongly, I care way too much about opinions. I won’t explain it this time. It’s a good practice. “You don’t have to justify everything Dwayne.” You’re right, I’m talking to myself.

I don’t think about that past life often though. Very few even know that I was married. I forget that. It’s funny, there was a point in my life where every one knew me as the collective. Dwayne & Sharon…and Bobby(tear). Now it’s the different. It’s just me and my little red ray of sunshine. My dirl(dog & girl combined). Dwayne & Gentri.

Today I thought, which is a good thing, because if I hadn’t then someone should’ve called an ambulance. Oh the jokes are getting worse. Today I wondered if Sharon would even know me? If we were to run into each other who would she see? At one point she knew me better than anyone, and now she doesn’t know me at all. Would I be a complete stranger or an old friend? I wonder if I turned out the way that she thought I would? Damn, life takes some crazy turns. Not thinking on that much longer.

Bobby was the last piece of that life I had. He died last July. I wanted to tell her, but I couldn’t. I imagine somewhere on social media that news made it to her. It was just too much. I dreamed about Bob-O the other night. I don’t really dream that often, but it was good seeing my boy. That dog meant a lot to me. Drying those tears. I sure am lucky to have Gentri.

Oh I finished Game of Thrones, and another book which I highly recommend. All the Light We Cannot See by Anthony Doerr. It’s beautiful. Did you hear GRRM announced a new book! Coming out this year, too bad it’s not the next in the series. I knew I was going to have to wait forever if I read that book. OK that’s over dramatic. I knew I was going to have to wait longer than I wanted too. haha.

That’s a betting ending,

~ dmp

P.S – You still haven’t written me, yet here I am writing another wof forsaken letter.

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