Vague Beginnings

It’s not everyday you turn 31. But today I do. It’s my birthday. Last year, I finished the Appalachian Trail on this day and was headed home. This year, I embark on a somewhat vague trip to Alaska. A walkabout of sorts. I say vague because it’s really hard to explain the why’s and when’s. It’s just a feeling in my guts and I feel like I’ll know when it’s time to come home. Whether that’s 1 week, 3 months, 5 years, or however long.

Right now, the bugs are churning in my stomach. I feel a similar nervousness to what I had when starting the Appalachian trail. It’s not a question of whether or not I will finish because there is really no set goal. Alaska is just a destination, but it’s not what the trip is about. The trip is about the journey. Aren’t all good stories about the journey. I’m nervous about how that’s going to look?

It’s not just an adventure.  It’s a process that I know is necessary for my well being as a person. But the lantern hasn’t shown me much more than the first couple of steps. Today I’ll try to make it to Arkansas and tomorrow Oklahoma. Maybe, I’ll figure out how to explain this better as I go.

2 Comments

  1. Sounds like an annual re-calibrating of sorts! It is nothing but good to reduce distractions for a bit. Have a grand time! If you get to Juneau, You may want to look up a friend of mine, Karen Rhyne Morgan. We started on an travel there in the late 70’s and I made it to Wyoming, while she went all the way to Alaska and found a life for herself there. At one point, all the IT stuff that came to Alaska went through her! I can get contact info. if you are interested. She worked at the leisure of the Governor for years, but I think she is semi-retired now.

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